Finally got internet back and I’ve got a lot to say!
I spent all day yesterday mourning any miniscule relationship I had with my mother. She is the most vindictive, selfish, idiotic person I have ever had the displeasure of being associated with and I am sick of it. I have been taking care of myself for over 7 years now. I’ve had a job for 7 years out of necessity because my mother refuses to be of any sort of help to me. I’ve had to forgo school and having a real honest to God childhood because I had to grow up so fast. TOO FAST. I shouldn’t have had to worry what boyfriend’s family I would be allowed to live with or how I was going to manage working every single day AND graduating high school. I shouldn’t have had to skip college and get a full time job because she was too lazy to work. Because SHE kept making up excuses to stay out of a job for 4 years. I shouldn’t have had 2 cars repossessed because she was 6 months behind on payments. Now, out of 7 years being a practical dead beat, she agreed to pay my car for the last year. Am I wrong for thinking that is something she is obligated to do? She lost the 2 cars I had for Christ’s sake! Today, she tells me that in 5 DAYS, I will have to pay a $220 dollar car payment. 5. Days. 5 DAYS. I’m pretty sure I have $20 dollars to my name. Just as I do every paycheck! I shouldn’t be put in this situation and I shouldn’t be having to put Jonathan in this situation. It is not his responsibility to take care of me. It’s HERS.
If it wasn’t for Jonathan, I don’t know where I’d be right now. He’s the person who keeps me grounded and sane and loves me no matter what. He’d do anything in his power to help me and be there for me and I wouldn’t trade him for anything in the world. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with the man of my dreams and now, my reality. <3 ~How sappy~
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